If I may be whiny and spoiled (moreso than my baseline, that is): it is hard knowing they are living their lives, the boys are growing up, without me. It is hard being in a new place and not having them here to share it. It is hard feeling like their lives go on just fine without me. I miss hugging them and kissing them goodnight. I miss handing Cracker Jack his chosen stuffed animals for the night. I miss Fruit Loop's crazy unruly hair and awkward growing boy-ness. I miss making Hottie McHots snuggle with me.
On top of that, we are selling the house. The beautiful, wonderful, supposed-to-be-our-forever-home-at-least-maybe house. The acreage, the barn, the pastures. And while owning the home was an impediment to the rest of the family moving here with me, it was not the only thing, and so I feel the loss and their absence that much more acutely - seems like everything is changing in ways that I don't want.
I am not the type to post pictures of my family on teh interwebs. But I will post some pictures from my adventures in landscaping. Nothing fancy, but my plants are kind of like my other children. Lots of other children. Some prettier than others. Some hardier than others. All loved, and all safe to post online so I can feel warm and fuzzy.
We'll go in seasonal order, beginning with spring. Part I. There are more. Oh yes, there are more. But first: animal crackers and nutella. Because that makes me feel warm and fuzzy. From the insulation it gives me. :)
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